“And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.” ~ Sylvia Plath
This week’s quote is such a true one in life. I think it covers all aspects of creativity, paintings, sculpture, written and spoken word, music and for myself particularly photography. One of the many things I struggle with in this blog is the writing. My followers are use to my photography but my written pieces that accompany them are often much shorter and rarer.
I don’t feel I have the flare with words as some of my favourite bloggers do. They say a picture paints a thousand words and sometimes that seems correct but other times it’s a few choice words or sentences that lift a mediocre photo to something special.
There has been times in the last two years when I’ve had something to say and I’ve then had to work out and take a photograph to go with it. The posts Basque and Black Lace are prime examples but the majority of my creativity comes from spending time with my camera and being able to create striking images. This is so much easier when using someone else as the model (which unfortunately only happens occasionally) because the amount of self doubt is reduced. I’m not looking at the image and thinking “is my arse too big?” Or “is my birth mark too obvious?” I’m just looking at the image and working out if it looks good or not.
My self doubt has been higher recently probably due to all the other added stresses that a global pandemic brings but also as I’ve felt rather lost. My purpose at work was massively reduced. I wasn’t playing music with my friends or sharing images at the camera club. And like many I’ve put on a bit of weight during lockdown so my sense of self worth and sexiness has unfortunately dropped.
I’d have hoped with all the time on my hands I would have spent ages getting interesting and inspiring images but that wasn’t the case. I hardly picked up my camera. If it wasn’t for my weekly jewellery change or prompt weeks on SinfulSunday I doubt I would have taken any new images.
So to accompany this post I’ve decided to use a completely unedited image I took during lockdown. It was an outtake from when I took the image Pink Chest It is an attempt to have the “outgoing guts” to show something personal. To take risks and quieten the self doubting voice that is my “worst enemy” Let us see if I can move forward and apply this to the rest of my 2020.